Finally I got married.........
And the daily life of a marriage has begun.........
When I woke up in the morning, still there is no big change in my life, starting to the bathroom, and getting ready to the office. The difference is only no I have my big man, I used to call him Koko, next in my bed who is still sleeping....but a little bother by shining lamp I used to make up.
Lucky me, I live with my mother in law, then I do not have to be hurry, preparing breakfast in the kitchen.
I think that marriage life is more interesting than being single at first, but the fact, it feels the same. Every option has its consequences.
Being single is not bad afterward.
One happy moment of my dream is I can have a full day with my new husband........:)
Starting with, breakfast together, watching TV, enjoying the entire day just the two of us.
Anyway, just only two weeks of marriage, I feel not good with my body.
Once I got headache, Not willing to go anywhere.........just want to sleep all day,
one day I got stomach all day, not willing to eat at all.
My koko says that, "I think you got pregnant, De".
Oh...my.....last thing in my mind about that. I am not ready yet to be pregnant. I am not ready to have big body, to have morning sickness, and despite all that, I am not ready to give birth ...not yet.........I am not ready to for all of that operation for birth or normal birth anyway.
I still want to have usual life........being new wife and have a happy couple day, just the two of us........
But reality is still a reality, when I got my test, yes I am pregnant, no doubt when the two lines come up in the strip.........oh goshhhhh........what can I do now ????
Feel like I want to cry out loud at that time, I am not ready yet, I do not want anybody knows that I am pregnant. Hoping that it is only a dream, then when I wake up everything is back to normal.
Not that simple my dear, the next day, and the after day, and the next other week, I still got bad headache, bad stomach, and even worse, I cannot eat anything, not even a bar of chocolate or the delicious ice cream. I do not want all of that. I just want to sleep........and sleep..........and more sleep..........
I try to jump a lot, and jump again, wish I am not pregnant after this, later when I remember this, I feel like a bad mother who wants to take a way my beloved baby.
But one thing for sure, I still got pregnant anyway.
I was sad......very sad......at that time, I do not want to be pregnant......... I still want to have a normal life, browsing around with my dear friend, having perfect day with my koko, chewing all day with my mom..........
Anyway, if you want to know what it is like of pregnancy life, then you can see and feel it here.
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